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JMJ
"For I am already being poured out like a libation, and the time of my departure is at hand. I have competed well; I have finished the race; I have kept the faith. From now on the crown of righteousness awaits me, which the Lord, the just judge, will award to me on that day, and not only to me, but to all who have longed for his appearance." (2 Tim 4:6-8)Each morning one is prepared with sound resolutions and the zeal to practice the accompanying virtues that are required for them. Unfortunately, as the day drags on, his store of patience is slowly depleted, and with it, his reserves of persevearance quickly run dry. By the day's end, he is often exhausted from taxing battles- physical, mental, and spiritual. The respite he seeks is within reach, when still another implores his attention. Perhaps it is something small, but at that moment, when so little of his stamina remains, a seemingly innocuous request looms large and burdensome.
He considers the matter briefly, hearing his ego opine incessantly,"It is too much!" His cup is nearly empty, only the pitiful dregs remain; cannot he savor these last few drops for himself? Or must he give them up too? Though he has freely sacrificed himself all the day, or week, or month, or year, there is a present need that can only be filled by his love, and no other. There is solace in the knowledge that only he is needed, if not comfort in the outpouring of his spirit.
The total gift of self, compelled by one's vocation, is, as St. Paul wisely said:"being poured out like a libation." It is a complete emptying of one's store of energy, in all facets of life. The intensity of the demand requires a constant replenishment of the needed graces to sacrifice generously and joyfully, not begrudgingly and resentfully. These graces come through the Sacraments, but also by frequent prayer throughout the day- continual contact with the one who supplies all our needs. In particular, we should implore our dear Mother in Heaven, who greatly desires us to ask for graces through her intercession. For what Mother does not wish her child to succeed and finish the race well?
